March 07, 2014

Use a god you trust

Today is the 7th of March. I am just confirming this fact for myself. 

I received a text message from Apple this morning that my "new" (read as: refurbished) MacBookPro is supposed to come today. The one that I am currently typing on is running hot these days--just like her mama.....Unfortunately, she shuts down a lot trying to save herself---(just like her mama)--and it is becoming hard for her to stay useful. I had her cleaned and new fans put in but she is just old (NOT like her mama.....AT ALL....well, maybe a little). I think I am going to have to put her down. It is hard to have a computer I can only use 10-20 minutes at a time. Maybe I can find a nice farm somewhere where she can run free for her last years.

The problem is---this computer, she had hopes and dreams. She was going to write an amazing novel, she was going to wow the world with herself. She was going to somehow use the vehicle of words to affirm that her existence wasn't just an exercise in pain and suffering. Fortunately or Unfortunately, my computer confided in me, she realized that the things she wanted for herself--some of which she'd wanted for so long, were not things that were hers to have. Maybe, now, in this hour of death, she realizes that this is ok--and that what was offered was more than enough.

She wants me to shoot her in the hard drive, but I'm not sure I can do that. Still looking for the farm.

I am listening to Love and Rockets because, yes, I grew up in the 80's and yes, they are still great. Right now they are yelling at me:

"Live a life you love.
Use a God you trust.
And don't take it all too seriously."

This seems to be pretty sound advice. Now, if I could only get my brain to cooperate. 

Maybe I should shoot her in the hard drive....